Final exam grade woes

So yesterday I got my exam grade back for the GI module... and needless to say, I didn't do so hot. I got by but what the heck, I studied for it fairly rigorously and I felt pretty confident that I knew the material, but it didn't amount to anything on the exam...

Am I the only one who feels like this?

It is super discouraging and is telling me that studying has no effect on the outcome, so I would almost be better off not studying as hard and enjoying some time to myself everyday, no? I hope it is not the case that the amount of studying I am doing now is the bare minimum I need to do to just pass the class........

However, in the end, it doesn't matter... honors or just passing. It all comes down to the USMLE anyways. I've been doing qbank questions for the GI module and it isn't too bad, so I hope that is more reflective of the fact that my studying is amounting to something at least... I just hope my downward trend this year doesn't carry over to the boards coming up... yikes.

They say to do well on the boards, you should do WELL in your class... well that is certainly not the case for me. They say, don't study for boards ahead of time, and that what you learn in class is what will be relevant to the boards... Each organ module grade tells me that I have to study harder for the next module, but this time around, my grade for GI just told me that I suck at life. Something isn't working and something has gotta change. At this point, I just hope I crush the step 1.

I have so many goals with my medical career, and I am just afraid that these stats are going to hold me back. lame.